What A Hypocrite

As I sit in the quietness of my in law's home and am finally able to breathe after what has felt like eons of trials, I suddenly feel inspired to write.

I just posted a blog stating I am forced to take a sabbatical.  That is true, but for as long as I have internet, I will write if I feel inspired.  Tonight, I feel inspired.

Have you ever had the desire to take a vacation from your life?  Just whisk your spouse and kids away to some warm island where there are no fears, or spiders, it only rains when you want it to, and the warmth is just perfect enough to feel like a warm blanket on a cold night?

In some ways, I desire a vacation from my life.  I think part of it has been that I have been sick for 5 out of the past 6 weeks, and dear hubby is still looking for work, and ei hasn't kicked in yet.  Our son got sick last week.  Really sick.  Like I called the health line and they told me to hang up and call 911 sick.  After a good friend rushed us all to the hospital, it was confirmed he had bronchial pneumonia.  After 3 1/2 days of no sleep (on my part) our son was able to go home.  We are thankful he is ok.  Seeing our baby hooked up to an IV is an image I hope will be erased from my mind.

I don't know when these times will end.  I long for a lot of things, but know God is teaching us much.  For example, all we can do right now is rely on God.

The silly thing is, I don't remember the last time I read the Bible.

As we were coming up to where my in law's live we were listening to a sermon by Charles Price.  I wasn't paying close attention, but a few things managed to strike a chord in my heart.  One being a story he told about when he was a little boy.  He had some Bible verses he would read.  He would race through them, then get on with his day but he felt like a good person because he read the Bible.  He never knew what he read because he raced through the verses.  It eventually dawned on him that the purpose of reading the Bible is not to read the Bible, it is to get to know the Lord.  This didnt hit me until I wrote it down.  To get to know the Lord.  To be in relationship with the Lord...

Oh how I desire intimacy with God.  How I thirst for relationship with my Savior.  No wonder I feel like a dying woman in a desert crawling in search for the next oasis.  All I have needed to do is look right in front of me.

Wow... self-therapy via blog.  I guess this is what it usually is for me.

To all blog-stalkers out there, I have a question for you:  How do you spend time getting to know God?  Maybe if ideas are shared, we can all challenge and encourage one another.

I didn't even pack a Bible.  Shouldn't that be the first thing I think of?!?  My focus has been off so much.  I thought I focused on God, but I have been focusing on the problems.

Who knew the blog author could kick herself in the butt while writing what comes to her eh?

I need to go spend time with God.  It's a good thing my Father in law is a pastor... lots of Bibles in this house ;)

Forced To Take A Sabbatical

So... we can't get internet for the summer.  We will be close to public internet, so I am not sure how often I will get on.  God is still stretching us, but we are striving to stay strong.
I will blog as often as I can.